Sometimes I feel like I have to be everywhere and do everything everyone asks of me. I feel like I'll be missing out on something amazing if I can't be in twenty places at once. In other words, I have a hard time saying no. Even if I know for certain I can't be somewhere or do something for someone I'll usually say something like, "Oh let me ask my mom." or "I'll have to check my calendar." and usually end it with a, "I would reeeeaaaallllyyy love to." and I'm not messing around, I really would love to do everything. The problems come when I see what I missed when I said no. I see on social media that they had a great time, that the production looked like so much fun, that maybe... they didn't need me and I get really sad.
Maybe that's it. I want to be wanted. And for many of these projects and activities, I know I was.
What I have to do I look at where I was when the other activity was happening. That's when I realize that I was having a great time too! That I was with people that I loved and that loved me and we were making memories together. These are years I will never have back and I want to make every second count. But I need to know what my limits are and remember what's important.

Godspeed ladies and gents